Yes.. My son with Severe Autism went to a Valentine’s Dance Last Night!

3b2564bc377780ef99ebec16c81f7cb7When you have a child diagnosed with severe special needs, some of the early questions on your mind sound a bit like this… Will they marry? Will they have friends? Will they fall in love? Will they happy? And on the list goes… These aren’t wishes for ‘normalcy’ as much as a life fulfilled. I was and am always wondering if Aydan feels he’s missing out.

In my writing and blogging, I often focus on exposing the people of this world who are harming our children through vaccination. Whether or not this is intentional destruction for world domination or merely incompetence and greed isn’t as clear as the fact that it’s happening. We can no longer dispute the facts on that.

But today, I’d like to expose another truth.. There are many good people in the world. When we moved to the area in Southern California, Aydan and my oldest son, Avery were 4 and 6. We found out about a local church that offered 3 hour respite care, free for families with special needs children. They would provide everything from bouncy castles, music, therapy dogs, and so much more with one on one attention for each child and their siblings. It started once a month, I’d drop the boys off. My son, Avery would ask all month long ‘is ‘Buddy Breaks’ this weekend?’ As the years went on more churches in the area started offering this service. At one point it was 3 Saturday mornings and a Friday evening, which was our favorite as it gave my husband and I a date night. He’s always had to work Saturdays, so I’d use the time to clean the house, get coffee, go shopping.. whatever I needed that day.

As Avery got older, I began dropping off Aydan and taking Avery on a special date. With my weekly schedule so filled with Aydan’s therapy or 1-1 time, etc.. This was a time just for me and Avery. I have a memory of him being around 8 or 9 and the movie, ‘The Lorax’ had just come out. A restaurant nearby was doing a special Lorax themed breakfast, so we decided to use this time for brunch and a movie. We talked about it for weeks and on the day of, he woke up and ran into the hallway, gave me a big hug as he exclaimed… ‘it’s Lorax day!’ Avery will be 15 tomorrow, so hugs aren’t nearly as easy to come by. I will remember this day forever.

Aydan has always had a good time going and everyone there treats him with utter respect. People often forget that just because someone is non-verbal doesn’t mean they are babies. Too many well intended teachers and therapists will talk to a non-verbal child like a baby or they’re deaf or they’re dumb well into their teens and adulthood. It takes special individuals to always see the value in others. We’ve had the pleasure of knowing many of these people.

So.. last night one of the churches we’ve been going to for Buddy Breaks over the years, invites us to a Valentine’s Dance. We’d never been invited before, so I didn’t know what to expect. When we arrived I was amazed to see, this was the real deal.. The whole kit and caboodle… Dancing, food, drinks, Dj… They even had a red carpet with photos and a crowd cheering on the tweens and teens as they went inside… A real formal. It was great.


When I arrived to pick him up at the end of the night, I was taken to the dance floor by the event organizer. I could see him across the room hanging out with about 5 cool looking teens including his date. She reported back to me that Aydan was the perfect escort as she held her hand to heart. At both pick up and drop off, I had to fight tears as I am now just thinking of the night.

Our kids on the spectrum work so much harder than most kids their age, I think they deserve a night to be the center of attention in a positive way.


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Forrest Maready’s Are you Crooked theory?

Many years ago, I attended the Conscious Life Health Expo in Los Angeles to watch this speaker a Dr. Andrew Moulden. I had heard of Moulden from a therapist that worked with my son, Aydan. She said she had been at a speaking engagement where Moulden was also a speaker and he was doing a slide show of pictures, showing people with vaccine injury and how each had a crooked face, lazy eye or combination of the two. He had worked as a doctor with patients who suffered strokes and he began to notice that many people with other types of neurological disorders had the same type of droppy face. He theorized that vaccine injury caused micro-strokes that would result in anything from autism to Alzheimer’s. He made a compelling argument. Despite being a very credentialed doctor, he was thought of by the pro-vaccine community as a quack. Unfortunately, he passed away a few years ago.

If you have the time, I strongly suggesting reading this article elaborating on Moulden and his work as I am in no way doing it justice with this very brief synopsis.

Dr. Andrew Moulden: Every Vaccine Produces Harm.

No one that I have seen, has really picked up this crooked theory and ran with it until the end of last year. Forrest Maready a layman such as myself.. a parent, researcher and broadcaster started making videos about his upcoming book, “Are You Crooked?”

I immediately thought he was following in Moulden’s foot-steps until I watched all of his videos including the long description which is over two hours.

I found Maready was taking this further and he didn’t actually come to the conclusion micro-strokes were occurring resulting in cranial nerve damage. His theory was that a series of events happening simultaneously had to occur to cause the damage and those events were..

1) Pathogen interaction
2) Neurotoxin injection i.e. Mercury, Aluminum… (as ingestion provides a much different outcome)
3) Physical suppression

Whoa…. What do you think would cause all those things to happen at once???

As I watched the full explanation, I got chills… It made so much sense and had confirmed many pieces of the puzzle I had suspected for years but he was able to put them together in a comprehensive way.

I knew that there was a trauma component and wrote about in my article the Emotional Trauma of Vaccination.

I mean… Where I come from if you are force-ably penetrated against your will that’s called rape!! A small baby or toddler who has no clue what you’re doing can only fight for their lives, hence activating a the ‘fight or flight’ response. Maready goes on to explain how the survival response is different in males and females, possibly making sense of why so many more boys have autism than girls (5 to 1, I believe).

Males will first try to fight their way out, if that doesn’t work and their unable to get away from their abuser, they go into a disassociation state causing them to ‘tap out’. The brain then becomes immediately inflamed allowing for toxins and pathogens to enter. As the body calls for help from white blood cells to kill the pathogens, the cells are flooded with aluminum hence allowing aluminum to enter the inflamed parts of the brain and body resulting in cranial nerve damage..

Discovery of “Shockingly High” Levels of Aluminum in Brains of Individuals with Autism Suggests Link with Aluminum-Containing Vaccines.

Now we can see where this is going…

But don’t take my word for it, watch the videos and buy the book. I so really buy books as I’m on a budget. If I can find it at the library that’s what I’ll do. I also have little time for reading so I tend to get things on audio if that’s an option. However when I heard about Maready’s theories, I knew this was a must-have. I pre-ordered and waited with bated breath for it’s arrival.

I will be digging in and posting a review(s) as I go.

I know many people may dismiss Maready as just a ‘parent’.. He’s not a scientist or a doctor.. Why read his book or watch his videos? This is always really funny to me as whenever I have been asked for my ‘credentials’ to validate my research into vaccination, I always respond, ‘No, I’m not a doctor or a scientist… I’m better than that.. I’m a mom’. When you’re ‘just a parent’ with a vaccine injured child, you aren’t looking for paid incentives and trips to Hawaii from pharmaceutical or insurance companies… You’re just looking for the truth! Knowing the truth is the first step in ending the worst holocaust in human history.

Okay.. so off the soap-box I go… I’ve got some reading to do…

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Aydan’s Road to Recovery from Autism and Vaccine injury: Where have we been, where are we now and where are we going?

20160908_122108For those of you who don’t know, I have been writing Aydan’s Road to Recovery blog since 2009. My son, Aydan was diagnosed with autism in 2007 after receiving multiple vaccine injuries. I’ve detailed it in several of my articles, my podcast Truther Talk, radio interviews, etc…. But that wasn’t the initial intent of my blog. All I really wanted was for my son to get better. I had read about family’s who had great success recovering their children from autism using different bio-medical treatments and I was hopeful that I could find these solutions for Aydan. I wanted to write about these treatments as we tried them and chronicle the events of Aydan’s recovery, so other families could benefit.

Over the years after countless hours of researching and reading, I kept coming back to the vaccine injury component. I wanted to move forward and focus my attention on recovery. I wanted to write cute anecdotal stories about the kids and recipes but the vaccine injury kept rearing it’s ugly head and I couldn’t ignore it. I met other families with horror stories of children regressing as old as 5, 8, 10 years old… I heard stories of seizures, kidney disorder and death… It became a matter of responsibility to speak the truth and I felt compelled.

The more I dug into this rabbit hole, called the Vaccine Industry, the more disgusted I became.. I have yet to find the bottom of the hole.. It is a bottom-less pit with no end in sight… When you think you know it’s bad and dig a little deeper, you realize it’s much worse.. But I digress…

In the midst of all this, I never stopped looking for solutions and I never gave up my dream of healing, Aydan. No matter how many years would pass with failed treatments and money lost, I kept the dream alive and never saw any reason to let it go. Even well intended friends have suggested, I accept and move on but I never understood why I couldn’t accept things for how they are while maintaining hope for better. I do accept my son is 12 years old, non-verbal, suffers chronic gut pain and is still severely autistic.. I accept that reality and love him as is, and will continue to do so even if it never changes; however, I want better for him and I want him to live without pain and I will never give up on trying to make it so..

Now a little bit on the history of autism. Leo Kanner, child psychologist who did the first study and coined the term, autism (Greek for ‘within oneself’) in 1943, dubbed that ‘infantile autism’ was the result of bad parenting. Later it would be cited as being a result of a cold, neglectful, unfeeling parents and the term ‘refrigerator mother’ was born. This was not a good look for the parents of children with autism but autism was still very rare.

This would remain the accepted belief until 1964 when Dr. Bernard Rimland wrote his book, “Infantile Autism”. He noted that autism was not the result of bad parenting but was a neurological disorder that resulted from environmental toxins such as the ones found in vaccines. He recommended a treatment plan that included vitamin supplementation, diet, behavioral therapy and auditory training. He along with Dr. Sidney Baker and several others established the Autism Research Institute in 1967 and later the DAN (Defeat Autism Now) protocol. As the years would go by, the autism numbers would increase faster then the doctors could research and find viable treatments. Rimland never stopped looking for solutions and was one of the first doctors to suggest Medical Marijuana for autism.. He was very ahead of his time.

You can see Dr. Rimland in this very moving video, addressing an audience of autism parents. See what happens when he asks how many of their children regressed following vaccination…

This was supposed to air on CBS… It didn’t…

Though Dr. Rimland passed away in 2006, his legacy certainly hasn’t. One of his colleagues and original creators of the Autism Research Institute, Dr. Sidney Baker is still treating patients.

Much like Rimland did, Baker has seen the need to evolve the biological treatments over the years. As the numbers increase as well as the complexity of symptoms, autism and autoimmune disease have gotten way out of hand. The CDC estimated number of people diagnosed with autism is currently 1 in 68, with 1 in 6 children having a developmental disability. The more current statistics provided by TACA (Talk About Curing Autism) have the rate at 1 in 38. Honestly… WTF?

While I could spend all day going off on this, I’ll bring it back to Aydan. As we’re still seeking healing and recovery, Aydan’s doctor reviewing Aydan’s file as a ‘tough-nut’ and ‘non-responder’ to previous treatments has referred us to Dr. Sidney Baker. Dr. Baker has come up with a therapy in recent years that he has been used to treat people with severe gut disease like my Aydan. Many have autism, autoimmune, asthma, allergies, etc… It’s a unique type of pro-biotic therapy meant to repopulate the gut with… here’s the strange part… parasites… Weird, right? When I first heard this, I thought it was odd to say the least and then I read ‘Epidemic of Absence’. This book lays out the evolution of disease and how we’ve traded pathogens that are usually healed with a healthy immune system for chronic life long illness. What has changed? Well… vaccines, antibiotics, antibacetrials, antifungals…. you name it. We’re killing off too many bugs without discrimination as to whether or not they actually have a benefit.

If you have about an hour, I highly recommend this interview with Dr. Sidney Baker to see how he found and uses this therapy..

Baker has always looked at the individual with autism as a unique person and never allowed the label to drive the treatment. He doesn’t recommend Helminth therapy for everyone but for those who have done all the supplements, diets and fermented foods without seeing a restoration of gut health. For those, like Aydan…

20171218_162248Aydan and I traveled to Austin to see his doctor last December and since he recommended Helminth therapy with Dr. Baker, we’ve done one treatment. And guess what? The treatment worked! Aydan has been calmer, happier and has shown far fewer gut symptoms. The treatment costs about 150-180 bucks including shipping, every couple of weeks.. It’s not cheap! We are due to have another treatment but haven’t been able to afford it just yet.

Any upvotes on Steemit and/or donations to Aydan’s Road to Recovery have and always will go towards his healing and are currently trying to fund his next dose of Helminth therapy.

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Citations for this article are as follows:


-The Next Stage in Aydan’s Recovery!:

-Leo Kanner’s 1943 paper on autism:

-30 Solid Scientific Studies That Prove Vaccines Cause Autism:

-How the Vaccine Industry Uses Hollywood, Mind Control and Force to Create a ‘Brave New World’ of Transhumans!:

-Bernard Rimland’s Infantile Autism: The book that changed autism:

-CDC Statistics on Autism:

-New report shows 1 in 36 U.S. children has an autism diagnosis: Now will people care?:

-Learning About Autism
Sidney M. Baker, MD:


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My talk on the LabCorp patent to diagnosis autism biologically and how this as well as ‘smart vaccines’ are a part of the transhumanism and eugenics agendas.

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Forrest Maready Ep113- How Girls Avoid Autism, Finally Explained [My Incredible Opinion]:

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The Next Stage in Aydan’s Recovery!

I’ve been contemplating over the past several months what should be the next step in Aydan’s Road to Recovery.  It is a daunting task to look at such a complex issue and decide.. what next?

Last December at this time I was returning from Massachusetts where I attended the week-long Son Rise program at the Autism Treatment Center.  Thanks to fans, friends and family, I was successfully able to raise most of the funds needed to make the most out of the experience.  I felt blessed and humbled.

A year into the program, I feel the most important thing I learned was to make time for Aydan.  One on one time… And truly be present for that hour or so that we spend in the playroom.  Focus only him and not on the goals.. Not on the fears of the future or the regrets of the past.  It is our time together, that moment of mindful meditation where I join him in his world without judgment or agenda.  Yes, we have goals but when I am in his world, isming (stimming) along side, I think not of these… I wait for an opportunity from Aydan with a gesture, a look, often a smile or a laugh to build something together.

20160908_122108We have a lot of fun too!

But my question remains… What next?  I considered another fundraiser to go back and further my Son-Rise education.  But while, Aydan has shown improvement in engagement and communication as well as a significant reduction in anxiety, he remains pre-verbal and chronically ill due to his gut disorder.

We have been working on sign language for several years and Aydan continues to use a variety of signs, though it doesn’t seem nearly enough to help him express himself.  He is limited in his ability to use ASL due to difficulties in fine motor and it is a different language after all, to be truly fluent it may take several years.  At 12 1/2 years old, I decided to re-consider AAC (Augmentation Assistive Communication) devices.  We had tried this many years earlier when Aydan was still in school with a moderate amount of success but the school refused funding (big surprise). Now that he is homeschooled we receive no funding whatsoever from the school district, I looked to insurance, they never got back to me but I was able to find several scholarship opportunities through non-profits and Aydan was awarded two… that’s TWO free iPad scholarships along with apps for communication.  We’ve been working on it the past couple months and he’s flying through the stages.

Having said that I have been researching the Rapid Prompt Method (RPM), a teaching modality for non-verbal autistic people.  RPM has been able to help many of the most severe cases of non-verbal autism find a voice.  This testimonial is from Ido, author of Ido in Autismland.  He is a non-verbal young adult who has discovered his talent for communicating through his writing…

So now, let me tell you what I have. Autism for me is a severe problem.

How would you like it if your thoughts didn’t reach your body consistently? What I mean is that your thoughts are intact but internally neurological forces block them from your motor system so that messages get messed up, or ignored, or occasionally they get through. That can resemble not understanding, but it is not.

Nevertheless, the person cannot necessarily demonstrate intact thinking due to the motor issues that block speaking, handwriting, gestures, facial expressions, initiating actions, and more. So, smart intact people may spend years, or even their whole lives, in a body that traps them behind weird movements and unreliable, inconsistent responses. More than that, neurological forces may affect the sensory system, making sounds too loud or visual stimulation overwhelming. The frustration is compounded by autism experts who dumb down learning because of their belief that autism is a language processing problem.

When I was young I did ABA. No offense to any ABA people here, but for me it was a horrid experience. I found those early years of drills and reinforcements an exercise in boredom because I already knew the vocabulary they taught. I just had unreliable hands to point to the flashcards accurately. The baby talk, and most frustrating, the supervision sessions that never worked on my real challenges, made me feel frustrated and angry. Worse, the theories probably delayed my mom’s ability to recognize my true potential by several years, at least.

No offense to any Floortime people here, but I never got much out of my sessions because my play was so delayed when I was small. I craved more than the games I got. But my Floortime was minimal. I was drowning in ABA drills instead.

No offense to OT people here, but what I desperately needed was motor control and physical fitness, and I never got that. I got swings that spun me. Once until I barfed.

No offense to special ed teachers, but when I couldn’t show my intelligence, I still was thinking. But all I got was one plus one, ABC and the weather. My recommendation is to teach at least some age appropriate lessons and books, even before the student can express his thoughts. Who knows how much is locked inside?

My helpers were kind and well meaning, but the way I was taught missed my real needs for communication and motor control simply because the methods assumed I did not understand spoken language and therefore needed a rudimentary lifestyle.

What helped? Soma did. She gave me the ability to type on a letter board when I was seven through her method, Rapid Prompt Method, or RPM. This has progressed to a keyboard and ipad. Because of this, I am a general education student, college bound, on the high honor roll in AP classes and even learning a foreign language. I work out with a trainer and I hike and run and row on a machine at home. I also took piano lessons. These things helped me.

To all the professionals I offended earlier, sorry. I admire your devotion, compassion and caring. I challenge you to see your nonverbal autistic students differently and with high expectations for learning.

I take Ido’s recommendations very seriously and regard him has a brilliant philosopher and thinker (which has grown increasingly rare in our modern times).  Were he to have remained in his silent prison, what a loss this would have been to the rest of us to never hear his wise words.

Rapid Prompt (RPM) may seem very different from Son-Rise but many Son-Rise families use it and one thing they both have in common is unwavering belief in the affected individual’s ability, no matter how ‘severe’ they may seem to be.  Not being able to speak most certainly does not mean not having anything to say!!

I’ll be continuing to look into this further and looking for more ways I can begin implementing RPM techniques.

At the end of the day; however, the vaccine injury always rears its ugly head and I am reminded of how far away we are from recovery.  I know the word ‘recovery’ can be misleading or even offensive to some.. For me it has taken on different meanings over the years.  I once believed it meant reversing the diagnosis of autism, I’ve seen this happen with other children and it is quite a miracle.  Today, I see recovery as not the removal of a label but rather the ability to communicate with ease and comfortably.  To live without chronic pain… I see Ido as recovered! Though he may appear to the naked eye as a person with severe autism who cannot speak, most of those who speak with ease don’t have nearly as much to say..

Anyway.. the original question remains.. What next?

The next stage, I’m afraid is a return to the first… The vaccine injury, the severe gut disease that had my son living with chronic diarrhea for 2 years and that has caused us to change our dietary restrictions on average about 3-4 times per year.  Each time an allergy is identified and kept under control a new one emerges, like a game of whack-a-mole.  Then we think, maybe the food restrictions aren’t helping and we shouldn’t make such a big deal about it, only to find matters getting worse, old symptoms returning, excessive weight gain and so on…  Some days might seem okay while others are a non stop effort to try to figure out what is wrong… Is it a migraine… Is it your stomach… If so, is it hunger or gas or cramps or what… The inflammation caused by the autistic enterocolitis never seems to want to go away, at best it appears to be playing a game of peek-a-boo.

If we care to make the most of our Son-Rise program and implement RPM, (which of course I do), we must address the chronic pain.  I can only imagine the feeling of trying to work, learn and play only to be hindered by illness.

So, I made an effort to get us back to Austin and make a visit to Aydan’s GI specialist and MAPS doctor at the Johnson Center.  The Johnson Center does offer partial scholarships for families in need and we were able to get funding for our trip through Miracle Flights (yes, a plane… A little scary, I know but we’ll make it through).  Since we are fortunate enough to have friends and family in the area, lodging and transportation is also covered.  We will be accepting donations for the remainder of our clinical visits totaling 3 per year (1 in office, 2 via phone / Skype) in the amount of $415 as well as another $400 for testing, on-going supplements and/or dietary changes as needed.

We can do nothing to change what has been done but we can look forward with solutions in mind.  May we all continue to pray for Aydan’s ‘recovery’.  I pray one day, like Ido, he will be one day released from his silent prison.

I am an autistic guy with a message. I spent the first half of my life completely trapped in silence. The second – on becoming a free soul. – Ido


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Food, love and autism… Again (PT 3) What’s on the menu for #Thanksgiving Dinner when you have leaky gut?

What’s on the menu for #Thanksgiving Dinner when you have leaky gut?

As the mother of a vaccine injured child we’ve gone over and beyond to figure out what foods my son can eat.

While I love the family time, food and fun on Thanksgiving, it’s a day that requires a lot of preparation.

We’ve been on every diet including but not limited to GF/CF/SF, Body Ecology, SCD, GAPS, Paleo, Candida diet, Rotation diet, LOD, Feingold and on and on….

We eliminate any known allergies or sensitivities and give digestive enzymes but are still after 10 years dealing with the gut dysbiosis caused by vaccine damage.

While there’s a lot of great food bloggers offering great advice, most miss the big elephant in the room that leaky gut is vaccine damage.

What does Traditional Chinese Medicine say about Leaky gut?

“TCM has never addressed the issue because it is a modern phenomenon. Historically, the only way bowel toxins entered the blood stream was through trauma, for example by sword or spear. This quickly led to septicemia that might be treatable, or more probably, ended in death. Outside of trauma, the body maintained a wonderfully effective selective barrier in the small intestine, one that allowed nutrients to enter, but kept out metabolic wastes and microbial toxins rampant in the intestines.”:

Gut Bacteria May Play a Role in Autism:

GAPS Diet on Aydan’s Road to Recovery​:

Food, Love and Autism.. Again:

Autism, Cooking, and Most of All, Love:

The Boden Family Thanksgiving recipe for 2017:

Appetizers: bacon wrapped dates, Prosciutto wrapped apples and pears, stuffed mushrooms, fruit with seasoning dip:
deviled eggs

Side dishes: potatoes, sweet potatoes
orange cranberry sauce, cauliflower stuffing
paleo cornbread
Brussel sprouts

Main course turkey with herbs sage, rosemary, thyme

Dessert pumpkin pie:

Apple pie:

Coconut ice cream

Any thoughts, concerns, ideas? Please add to the conversation… What’s working for you?

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Falsify! Are Vaccines A Science?

Falsify! Is Vaccination a Science?

Join me as I walk you through the concept of science versus pseudo-science or myth, using examples from religion and modern science, as we then take on VACCINATION. Is it “falsifiable?” Is it “Safe and Effective” as proponents claim? What is the true state of vaccination? And what are the “ad hoc” excuses that vaccine supporters make when they realize they’re supporting a pseudo-science?

How the Vaccine Industry Uses Hollywood, Mind Control and Force to Create a ‘Brave New World’ of Transhumans!

“Men (people) are rarely aware of the real reasons which motivate their actions.”
Edward L. Bernays

Imagine this… You are a parent of a beautiful, healthy child.  You love this child more than you thought possible. You spent your whole life thinking that you understood the meaning of love until now… Now you KNOW… This is IT.  It’s shocking!  While you just met this person, this tiny being, you feel they have been with you your whole life.  This is love beyond any measure you thought possible, you would do anything.. ANYTHING to protect this person, this part of you.  You take your perfect child that you love beyond compare to the doctor who you’ve always been taught is looking out for the health of the people. This doctor will green stamp your little one and ensure that he remains healthy.  This larger than life figure with years of education, has dedicated their life to protecting children and you will make the necessary sacrifices to bring your child to this person, as you KNOW they are on your side. You hand your perfect child to this stranger that for some reason you’ve been taught to trust.  They take your child and put him on a cold, hard table while the nurse assists in holding down your child, so he cannot move, while she proceeds to inject him with a sharp needle.  You are mortified, ‘please, how can you do this to my child.. Can’t you see he’s terrified…’ Oh but the doctor… This trusted employee… This stranger you trust more than yourself, has assured you that this is for the child’s best…  It is for the ‘greater good’ of humanity and you reluctantly agree to continue.  Then you take your child home while he cries in the car all the way. You bring him to a comfortable spot to nurse him and calm his fears.  He has trouble sitting still and won’t calm, he won’t latch to your breast, he seems to have spiked a fever, you give him Tylenol as the doctor prescribed and he falls asleep.  When he wakes, you no longer recognize your healthy child.  He has stopped talking; he doesn’t look at you; he no longer recognizes his own name.. You call the doctor and scream into the phone ‘what have you done to my child??’ They assure you it is fine and your child was not affected by the vaccines that were given.. ‘No, this wasn’t what you saw.. This thing didn’t happen..’ You believe them and take your child back a few months later and do it again and again and again until your child is completely gone.  Nothing of the healthy child you once knew seems to be left.  They have been so badly damaged by this thing that is not supposed to cause damage. The doctor still assures you, you have not seen what you saw.. You no longer believe him.

You start to research vaccines and find that this thing that you saw, that your doctor repeatedly denied actually happens all the time; not only that, but this thing that your child was given is filled with toxins and many other things you don’t even recognize.  You think that perhaps sacrifices are necessary for the ‘greater good’ just as the doctor has said.  You then look further only to find this too, is a lie.  These things.. These vaccines that hurt your child weren’t even verified to be effective at preventing disease.. In fact there is no evidence to support they have eradicated disease… So much for the ‘greater good’, huh?  You are baffled and wondering how and why did this doctor tell you all these things?  Why did you believe him? How did this happen?  How did it come to this?

And now your child is left damaged.. Possible irrecoverably.. And for what?  You are angry.. So angry you can hardly breathe.. You begin to see it everywhere you go.. All the children that look like your child.. DAMAGED.. All the lies you are told about the ‘greater good’… You begin to question if anything you have been told is true… How can the wool have been so completely pulled over everyone’s eyes.. You try to tell people every chance you get but they won’t listen.. They get angry at you and call you names.. They think you are crazy even when you show them the historical data that vaccines never eradicated disease; Jonas Salk did not cure polio.. ‘please, hear what I’m telling you, our children don’t need to be damaged like this..’  You would think that people would be grateful for this knowledge to protect their children but they don’t appear to be.. You see their children are already damaged too.. One at 12 years old still cannot read, another has multiply chemical sensitivities, another auto-immune, another with uncontrollable seizures and another who has died… You tell them, all of this.. ALL these things can be explained in the vaccine science and we don’t even need them, it’s right in the pharmaceutical company’s own literature.. But no one wants to read what you’ve read and no one wants to hear what you have to say and no one wants to stop vaccinating and you are ostracized.

So as you sit bewildered you ask once again… “How does it come to this?  If the data is so clear, why doesn’t anyone know?  And why do I feel so alone? I can’t possibly be the only one nor the first to see this, so where is everyone else?”

Enter the propaganda machine and a hidden history….

The Anti-Vaccine Movement: A Hidden History and Propaganda!

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Before the First Cup, guest April Boden – Immunity, Deception & the Global Petri Dish 4-24-2017

Before the First Cup – Social Engineering, Peer Pressure, Personal Data & 21st C Panopticon 4-14-17 –


The Truth About Vaccines –

Why I don’t trust Robert Kennedy, Jr. –

Bedford’s RFK Jr. bashes vaccine bill in Albany –

Deadly Immunity –

Former Merck Scientists Sue Merck Alleging MMR Vaccine Efficacy Fraud –

Former CDC Head and Current Merck President Caught in Fraud Scandal –

REP. Bill Posey Calling for Investigation into CDC’s MMR fraud –

Measles virus for cancer therapy –

Emerging Risks of Live Virus & Virus Vectored Vaccines –

CRISPR genome editing and immunotherapy – the early adopter –

Nanoparticle vaccine shows potential as immunotherapy to fight multiple cancer types –


FDA questioned about genetically engineered HPV DNA in Gardasil –

Before the First Cup with Jules – New Gardasil-9, FDA, Plum Island

Before the First Cup with Jules – Gardasil Vax Makes HPV Infection MORE Likely 4-30-2015 –

Co-evolving Antivirals Aim to Keep Ahead of Fast-Changing Viruses –

DARPA INTERCEPT Program for Biodefense Countermeasures –

Immunization Safety Review: SV40 Contamination of Polio Vaccine and Cancer –

Vaccines Cultured in Chick Embryos Contain Retroviruses With Cancer Risk to Humans –

Pig Virus DNA Found in Rotavirus Vaccine –

Humans have antibodies reactive with Bovine leukemia virus –

Bovine Leukemia Virus DNA in Human Breast Tissue –

Bovine Leukosis Virus (BLV) on U.S. Dairy Operations, 2007 –

Executive Order — Advancing the Global Health Security Agenda

The Prion Chronicles: The Story Of Interferon –

Activation of the Human Immunodeficiency Virus Type 1 Long Terminal Repeat by Vaccinia Virus –

AIDS Epidemic Triggered by Smallpox Vaccine –

California School Provides Door to Door Vaccination!

Baboon Study Reveals New Shortcoming of Pertussis Vaccine –

Duration of virus shedding after trivalent intranasal live attenuated influenza vaccination –

Avian Flu Shedding –

Man Has Polio Virus Living in Gut for 30 Years –

Persistent measles virus infection of the intestine: confirmation by immunogold electron microscopy. –

Shape-Shifting Vaccines Wanted for Killer Viruses –

Trump administration removes Obama surgeon general –